Waste sheets

Waste sheets

She used to scribble some lines 

every weekend in some sheets of paper,

to write stories of life or her poems

in the candle light with the ink.

This time those sheets desperately waited. Those pen and ink were laid on her table

waiting for the warm touch. 

At last...

She took those sheets, pen and ink,

thoughts recollected on her mind,

those blank sheets filled by her tears,

ink spread all over, created a new art...

--$uparna...

" You're More Than my ENEMY - You're MY BEST FRIEND "

We were both swirling stars on opposite sides of the universe as the sun shines in a place where i'm awake and the moon wave a lullaby at your closing eyes.

We’ve tried to keep each and every moment by long and short messages and that became part of our lives.

your smile can’t be measured by so many miles and our silent laughter brought by jokes only two of us can understand.

We were both dreamers chasing all the things that were impossible learning to achieve what makes our heart happy... 

We were friends separated by distance but our connection can’t be broken by flying airplanes and even by gossips that whispers like a wind in the sky!

Every detail of each other’s face will remain in our minds and our hellos will never end with goodbyes.

Our day starts with good mornings and ends with good nights which fills the gap only by memories.

We crossed the railroad tracks, walked to every place and we even misunderstood by others,But you stood up for me each and every time...

If our friendship is love then i love our friendship if it is just a care I respect our relationship,

Don't look away if others misinterprets' this

stay with a confident smile and search for rainbows lost in the drop of tears and pain.

 If you are happy then my eyes catches all smiles;

 If my heart cries I see you melted in my hands;

My friend, O my friend I wish to be and I'd love to be

 your's best friend until the end.

:): Being hopeful and painful at the same time:(:

It has been long time for me to be here and I finally came up with the new post today. 

There are random times that I’ve thought of people whom I haven’t talked to them in recent years.

Wondering!!! Where are they and what are they probably doing ? This could itself be a big question for me Whenever, I hear their names in a random order. Counting... how many years,days and months I've passed since from the last time I have met them and shared smiles.

To be well-determined and more Independent sometimes, I also think that What if they are still stayed in my life? ? What if they are still talking to me and giving me random advises? Wouldn’t I have made any careless mistakes? or my life would have turned to be better ?

I can't even think about these swirling WHAT IF'S questions .

When ever i think of the days that are arriving with big changes in life,  I do scare like baby which is learning bicycle for the first time....

Whenever I feel myself disturbed by thinking about the future days and about my best friends whom i rarely get time to meet in future. I'm going to miss my friends with whom i used to hangout daily, clinging to their emotions and accompanying them in every task which will be just memories for each of them who are stepping out to the corporate world fighting for their existence.

I’ve found myself hoping that they will choose to stay.That they will still make me smile. That they will be with me while gazing at the twinkling little stars. That tomorrow and the day after that, they’re still calling my name, saying Hi and Hello.

But sometimes i need to accept the fact that some people never going to be back and some people will be forever gone, no matter how many times I’ve wished that they were here by my side. I’ve grieve for people who were not physically dead still absent throughout my life. I’ve missed people who have already changed and even will miss the people who are about to change by time! .

sometimes in future if i think of those people who have opted to stay and those who left my way...
 I may become so hopeful and painful at the same time ...

LOVE is a 4-legged word

He wakes me up sharp at 6'o clock

Accompanies with my morning walk

He reminds me about my daily workouts

and sits with me during my breakfast

Be with me till i move out 

watch me till i get the bus
search me there all around

and waits till i return home

He come rushing in the evening 

to hold my hand and take me home

he looks at me and his eyes says 

that he missed me the whole day

with all my stress i yell at him
n wow at me to stop worrying
he brings smile on my face
and makes me forget the stress

I'll never walk alone because he will be there
No matter what the world talk 

We walk together looking at each other

He loves me more than I love...

That's why he is my "only love"

--$uparna... 

Yet Unspoken;

I visited so many places but this "one" has left me with such strong impression that, Even now, when I am fully awake, your face flashes before my eyes and those places surrounds me with sweet fragrances and cold breeze all around.

It's a face and place, I can totally relate to god inside the temple of my heart. Because, I saw my unspoken words understood by your eyes... that moment when your eyes started conveying a message made me spellbound.  

While I was looking into your eyes, I started to realize things about myself that were scattered for years, like fragments of my inner soul that were deeply suppressed without expressing it.

[Source: Rare click by hobby photographer Vikas.H.C]

It’s hard to say whether unspoken words were buried inside me or glittered outside after it is spoken clearly without words.

Perhaps, all this life that I've known so far was in fact no more but a dream about living about enjoying and about messing up with crazy adventures. The only thing that has kept me in touch with reality was you who made me to achieve my dreams…

I know you came to me as a surprise, and i'm wondering still how?

More than a dreamer i became an achiever. 

Even if it is "true" that you knew me better than anyone,
I will never admit it.

Rather I dig my own past in the graveyard of dead feelings, than admitting your words. 

Because, even though I allow few people into my own little world, I never assure that they know fully about me more than I know about "myself".

Apart from my selfishness 

The more I care, the less I give away, and this is something for you to understand, and grant me your forgiveness. 

In all my ups and downs in the journey of my life, you started being with me , supporting me and became a bridge to connect all my broken hope, created a glowing path towards happiness and became a stepping stone for me to smile.

Rather than giving more surprises in return the least thing I can do is praying for your wellness and will always thank you wholeheartedly with tears filled eyes, holding your hands and with my knees bent...
,but still heart left unspoken.

--$uparna...

Story UnTitled?

I entered my room in anger, frustration without having a proper reason for my depression.

A cup of hot coffee served by my mom, even though I felt her care, I arrogantly told her to keep it on my table.
I needed relief and some credits of appreciation for the recent posts I published in websites.
I felt as if my mind and my soul were scratched with disappointments and distractions.
I jumped into "GOOGLE" and started searching reason for my unknown sadness, not knowing where I would end up with after finding the reason, but knowing reason would be better than sitting simply with eyes opened is what I guessed.
Time had began to elapse, and as the sorrow that separated me from my happiness increased, I began to find the reason for my lost Smile. My life now, as an adult, became too busy to take time out for joy with friends because, I had deadlines to meet, goals to achieve and a career to concentrate.

But a pity thing I found was,

"Every busy worker take up a common break with their colleagues and have lunch together sharing their happiness boosting their spirit... being a student I dint had that chance to drink a cup of coffee with my friends.
Oh!!! COFFEE
That coffee kept on my table was alone and had become too cold to touch all cream of milk collected on the top same as my mind covered with full of frustration.

"Drink coffee when served hot

Enjoy Life when you are alive 

Cold coffee , pale life will never taste good" 

Well said by writer supoz came to my mind

"Choose your interest, 

work with rest,

have rebirth ,

enhance your hobby ,

have better life,

let your mind relax -

with the songs that make you to dance."

Nice quote written by scottland writer zoeh

Motivated me to plug my headphones , I went to kitchen to prepare a hot cup of fresh coffee.
In a porcelain mug gifted by my knees, I poured fresh hot coffee and brought it to my room
coffee smell added more taste to the music

"songs spread the fragrance of unleashed memories "

Sun was on his way to depart in the evening, clouds made my room dark as insult which covered my potential , I saw my shadow holding a coffee cup alone in dark which sat in-front of laptop & disappeared inside the screensaver of my laptop. I stared at the screen saver "PIPES" which started from the middle of the screen took blue n went up and down with all colors moving right and left tangled inside taking never ending curves.

It mesmerized me n took my attention deep to have comparison with my life .
Where I created friends n joy which had ups n downs too, without start and end for the trust showed by people n overall confusing entangled dreams for life in between the people who added true colors to my life n with the friends who showed their true colors.

I smiled as I drove past the situation which I came across.
I had lost with some precious memories, but they seemed to be flooding back, filling my heart.
The tears started falling down with unhealed pain all together . I sensed the reason for my depression and that would be the ignorance showed by friends. Pushing my hair out of my eyes, I took kerchief n cried till all tears of frustration gets empty.
It didn't took long time for me to find what I was looking for... my tears faded the words of expression.
I sat calm, eyes closed, listening to the song mixed with memories. Tears slid down my cheeks,
I spent few seconds trying to forget the things that made me cry ignored the things that pushed me to depression.
 I became more stronger than ever,

"If you ignore me i'll ignore you...
I'll ignore you, so hard that you doubt your existence"

I became so independent without ego or pride. I leave my way naturally with attitude reformed to prove myself stronger than ever.

 I had now learnt how to say good-bye.

GoodBye

to the people who neglected me, to the situation that missed my way , to the opportunity that turned back,  to the doors that shut , to the attitude that others showed and to the sorrows that snatched my smile.  

"I don't think you know how bad it hurts
To see all the good times buried in the dirt
All memories dumped and trashed
My heart is frozen, can't even move
Can't believe that I existed with the smile and with lots people all around"

--$uparna...

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Virtually Realistic -VR

       

             So boring, I was standing still in JNNCE bus shelter with my feet planted firmly beneath me.

Wearing a new glasses somehow I was supposed to step into and through a map which appeared in front of my eyes, when a blast of warm air ruffled me around...I was on a sandy beach in Hawaii Island, A spray of clean ocean air mists my face and sailed me towards the Jurassic world.

But before I can reach out and touch the long leaves of a sun-kissed palm tree, the ground under my feet cracked and I've been sucked through a wormhole. Seconds later, I find myself back. This is adventures experience on VR(virtual reality). Generally we call this as "4-D" experience not hallucination and its one of the latest innovations in virtual reality. Delivered via screen and headset with a special effect.

You feel as if you're in a Jurassic movie playing with dinosaurs around you, all above you, underneath your feet the snakes and leaves hitting your face.You don't direct it like a video game but instead hold on and go for the ride. It is very well might be the future of "travel to space" and whenever you get bored you can create your dream place and even feel the experience.

you can have experience through the special aspects of virtual reality (VR) which makes you to smell the salty air (via a synced scent release), or when you tunnel through a wormhole you feel the ground shake (via motion signals and a rumbling platform) when dinosaurs are about to hit you in Virtually you react and experience the effect in Reality. VR hardware is suddenly cheap, portable and you can create your work space as a pioneer with "GOOGLE CARDBOARD". New innovation creates a new virtual world in reality through the application of VR.
I shared my experience and now its your time.

"It's a race right now started and VR is leading ahead, have the experience and be a part of it."

--$uparna...