Boring Holidays and Longing Desire...

I am not an English scholar nor a good writer
but i believe that... my posts can be understood by you people...

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A TWILIGHT EVENING :

It was a Twilight Evening...
Twilight is the illumination of earth's lower atmosphere when the sun itself is not directly visible because it is below the horizon, where you can see the golden light scattering on the atmosphere...

It was the time... Sun was about to shut down from his daily routine and night was about to begin...

As usual a single star started blinking up in the sky...
Even the peaceful moon started peeping out to find the piece of dark cloud and star beside...

It was my holiday time ... Even i was with the same routine task of my day to day life...
Even after having holidays... I didn't went to hangout with friends ...
Even i didn't went for a tour,picnic,outing or anything as such...not even for a movie "PK" or "I"...

I was damn bored with the monotonous life in holidays.......
" I need to do something in this holidays "  was my usual verdict during my study holidays...
I was one who used to plan the things that i need to do in holidays without planning about studies n exams in study holidays...

But now... only few days left for "college reopen" and i did nothing in these holidays ...
Oh My God!!! what to DO??? became the mind striking question all time, when i get bored...

When i left with nothing to do i used to say..." i am bored "... and i was about to shout like "Take me out somewhere oh, god !!! i am fed up with this daily routine"
But what god can do???

At least gooooooogle can help me to come out from boring situations...

‘I’m bored' is a useless thing to say. I mean, you live in a great, big, vast world that you've seen none percent of. Even the inside of your own mind is endless; it goes on forever, inwardly, do you understand? The fact that you’re alive is amazing, so you don’t get to say ‘I’m bored'.
― Louis C.K

This quote caught my eyes.. when i logged in to my mail account...
I had a mail from my friend who started her mail with this quote...

Isn't it strange and Isn't it nice... When u get something... Something which really Interesting... Which attracts u .. When you are already in search of it...

After checking my mail... I switched off my laptop.... n saw a t.v remote lying lazy beside me ..
took it and switched on the "top green button" to have "red light" on T.V

Started checking the power and alertness of UV rays transmission by changing the channel ...
hmmm... working good...

While changing the channel from 1 2 3 to 68 n back to 67 66 65 64 i heard a song and changed channel to 65 again.....

Somewhere i heard switching to the nice songs can change our mind...

"interestingly"...A song grabbed my attention... it was a Tamil song about wish...

"Chinna Chinna Aasai Siragadikum Aasai 

Muthu Muthu Aasai Mudinthuvaitha Aasai" 

Yes a small,little,tiny dreams...
Dream means "Kanasu" .... aasai means not dream...
yeah!!  a "DESIRE"... a little,small,tiny "WISH"

‘Dreams have only one owner at a time. That’s why dreamers are lonely.’

i feel sooo lonely. Am i a dreamer???
Yes... I AM ...

I dream about my desires ....
then "I Should have some wishes"
& Small Unfulfilled dreams .

Not a daring dream like...
Thumbs up!! PePsi... wanna drink pepsi... "aaj kuch toofani karthey hain?" or
Even not a little desire of watching a movie night show (yes its a silly thing for reader not a simple task for a writer )

My deep desire and wishes :

1)TO "walk" alone in the lonely streets of unknown place... humming the tune of my favorite music... :)

2)A desire to have a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong drive to reach endless destiny... :)

3) Oh!!! yes wanna go a Joly ride to a nearby place as a picnic....

4)Hmmm  trekking...fire camp...
                       resting in huts made by us...
                                    eating the papads baked by us...

4) A dream of having a "moonlight" dinner with friends ...on the terrace

5)Wanna see the meteoroids fall... usually it happens during winter season ...

6)Wanna play "truth or dare" ,"Spirit come" and wanna hear "evil stories" late night...

7)Wanna play childhood games like "hide and seek" ,"snake n ladder" &"carom" with kids...
 "chess" & "cards" with elders...

8) A desire of building a clay houses near seashore at a great height that twinkling stars should lighten that sweet home...

9) Wanna sail across the world... Days together in a ship ... meeting new people having new friends...

10) Wish to see sunset being in the middle of the sea...
and a twilight greetings to the welcoming the darkness...

but where can i get my dreams and desire full filled??? how long it takes to get happiness from it???
 ... where i need to go in search of it???...
how to leave home to find kids n friends n to have night hangout?

how to replace tube light dinner n T.V from moonlight n friends???

In our busy schedule... holidays are meant for resting...

wake up @ 11 have food till 1... watch TV... start chatting in whatsApp and hike...
have sleep.... keep resting 12/7 and stay online 12/7....
Keep calling friends in line n viber ...
Start updating status in FB stating
"wow!!! i got 10000 nudge in group chat... i hanged up but my phone didn't hang"
commenting "may ua soul RIP"
and counter commenting "hehehe", "hahaha"... With a fake smile and artificial laugh...

with all these messed up feeling thought of updating a post...

I am in need of -> change over ...
fed up with this boring -> hangover...
I need a real smile n true happiness... not a fake n boring text sms...
I need my desires come true... I need my dreams to fly
I need to smile again ... I need to laugh from inside
I need a change ... I need friends who have same wish list...
I need time... I need a real world of mine...
I cant get my childhood happy holidays ... but I wish to get my desires come true with all my like minded friends once again...

--$uparna...

A SHORT STORY ABOUT TRUE HAPPINESS...

                   

It was a fresh winter evening I guess...

Exhausted by hectic morning routine...

I was alone at home, listening to "Emptiness" song by Rohan Rathore and was enjoying the melody of the song with a hot cup of tea...

Sip by sip taking a delight of loneliness & was relaxing with the old "mind freezing" memories of past...

//As a interval in the movie//

I got a text from my "old friend" in the middle of song & notification light flashed in between my memories...
That text really made me smile...:)

It stated like this
(("Will be waiting for you near "choco corner". Can u come out now n join me in 5 min???))
Without second thought n not giving time to the arising questions like WHY???

I replied "K"

I Just kept a cup of tea on my table .
Left home immediately n managed to reach the destination in 5 min.

There, my eyes was searching him in all the direction ...

I even looked above, at stars to Confirm whether its real or just my dream I came here for him?...

The moment i turned around, I saw him standing in front of Me ... Oh my god!!!
I can't stop staring at him...seeing deep into his eyes..
I talked to myself n stepped with him into the colourful empty "choco corner" ...

Sat in front of him looking deeply in his innocent eyes...
Realizing that
* He entered into my life as a candle light in the dark
* He showed me, the meaning of happiness with his words & care.
* His eyes spoke up the care he had for a friend like me...

I Started eating my favorite dessert which was ordered by him...
Lost myself and melted like an choco soup on the toppings of ice cream..

.

Not because of a strange feeling "LOVE"....

Just because of "CARE'' showed by him...
Just because of his ''Kindness"
Just because of his "happiness"
Which made me to overcome my loneliness ...

"What else needed in life apart from surprises!!!

that too from an OLD friend , who made me happy even with his busy schedule knowing that i might be bored " ...

Every lover can take care of their loving little heart...

But only a friend can understand your sadness without seeing you and can see
your happiness without talking to you
& can do anything just to make you happy...

"...Its the real beauty of friendship..."

The day that i spent with him have instilled a new bright life in me;

I was someone who would never surrender my feelings to someone. 

But his compassionate way of caring me made my day beautiful & brought up a sense of energy to have a brighter days in future ahead....

--$uparna...

HAPPINESS!!!

You are ALONE in this LONELY world...
b friend to YOURself...
no matter who will ACCOMPANY you...
who will make you CRY, who will make HAPPY,
go ahed ALONE to reach your destiny...
find HAPPINESSS................

--$uparna...

LOCK AND KEY OF MY HAPPINESS!!!

I always think that...
i am the most HAPPIEST person in the world...
But whenever i find the "KEY" of that HAPPINESS... ?!?
some or the other one changes the "LOCK" ???!!!
--$uparna...

LONELY life 2 LOVELY life!!!!

WHENEVER YOU ARE.....

Too much TENSED,
More WORRIED,
Felt ANGER ,
Nearly DEPRESSED,
Highly FRUSTRATED,
Completely BROKEN,
Deeply CRYING.......

BEFORE U THINK OF COMMITTING "SUCIDE" !!!

JUST sit ALONE CALMLY,
cry LOUDLY,
control yourself SILENTLY,
think FIRMLY,
take those movement very LIGHTLY,
take a deep breath KEENLY,
n move on HAPPILY ,
as if u were having a REBIRTH...
n what all happened were just a BAD DREAM about PAST LIFE...
"life will be beautiful"

--$uparna

"COMPROMISE" Yourself In The Journey Of "MISUNDERSTANDING"!!!

we all had a special day in our life...
the day when two stranger b'come friends...
D day when they laughed ...& they cried together...
shared their sweet moments...

felt lucky for being frnzz... wished many times to b together...

BUT...someday ................due to misunderstanding... because of little ego...

because of being busy and of being inconvinced...
a years of friendship turn off...

chatting frn b'come mute...
lucky friendship turns into disgusting...
avoiding each other leads to winding up the relation....

• NEVER HURT THOSE 'HEART' BY YOUR EGO IN YOUR "MIND"...
•  HEART GET MORE HURT THAN A PERSON...
•  IN EGO A PERSON FORGETS HIS KIND HEART AND GO WITH HIS MIND...

NEVER MIND TO GET COMPROMISED WITH THOSE PEOPLE WHO GAVE YOU SUCH A MEMORIES ... 

--$uparna...

BROKEN BOWL

I'm just a "tiny bowl''. . .

to put my "tears & pain separately" . .

"No existance" 

Unless and until
"Broken peices bounds together". .

--$uparna...

BE PROUD !!!

Don't feel BAD if people REMEMBER you, only when they NEED YOU...
Feel PROUD that ua like "BRIGHTNESS OPTION" in their life...
that comes to their minds when they can't see any other "OPTION"...

--$uparna...

EVERY LITTLE LOVING HEART THINKS THE SAME THAT...

I may be a little jealous, may be bit selfish...
but that's because....
I got something more amaZing and precious,,,
that I don't want anyone else to have "YOU"
except ME!!!

  
--$uparna...

READ oNcE THINK TwIcE

you may think that...
the happiest day in your life is WHEN....
you "FALL IN LOVE" with someone....
but in actual,,,
It is the day that you start becoming...
the "WEAKEST PERSON" who cant LIVE without that PERSON....

--$uparna...

PEARL

I would have "CRIED" ever...
 If a drop of my "TEAR",,,
  Could get a "PEARL" from a "OYSTER"...

--$uparna...

TRUE LOVE / FAKE LOVE?

:LoVe:

Is it just a word???

Its just a word of 4 letter (HOPE)
Yes, Its just a word of 4 Alphabet combined together (CARE)
OR is it just an other meaning for
-INFATUATION
-FONDNESS
-ATTACHMENT
-INTENSIVE LIKE TOWARDS SOMEONE?
NO its all a 4 letter word "FAKE"
It
May Be a "GAME" that people "PLAY"
"PLAY" between "TRUTH" and "LIE"
with "EGO" and "PRIDE" in between "U" and "I"

--$uparna...

MISS YOU

NOT SO IMPORANT PERSON!!! 

BUT STILL ARE YOU "MISSING" SOMEONE 

IN YOUR LIFE....???

In your life at some point of view.......

... _ you feel someone as "SPECIAL" 

If that person moves around you
... _ "your heart skips a beat  "...
sometimes you feel like talking with that person...
... _ Manytimes you'll hide your feelings...
because Its just a  "CRUSH" 
_ you go craZZZyyyy on them !!!

Their presence gives a feeling of enthusiasm .....
... _ ofcourse a sense of motivation..........
You look at that person inquisitively  ......
and that person is already staring at you!!!
All at once it make your feeelingss "cocktail"
... _ .!@#$%^&*(%$#)(_+%$#@/..,

if that person comes and ask you something.... ??!!
... _ without responding.. you'll be in air...!!!
But all of a sudden ,,,
... when you miss their presence,
... their sight, in your daily life!!!

... you find yourself left with an "empty LIFE"......

hope you are thinking about that person...
 whom you are missing right now............!!!

--$uparna...

NEGLECT THIS :(

              <NEGLECT THIS!!! NEGLECTED????>

We are not supposed to express...
nor we need to suppress,,,
"A FEELING OF BEING NEGLECTED"

We always been protected...
but never been supported,,,
it doesnot mean that
"WE ARE BEING NEGLECTED"

SELFISH world SELFIES you are!!!
one entity "WE OURSELF"
changed n divided to a
multiple entities of
YOU YOURSELF,,,n... ME MYSELF !!!
which says that
"WE ARE BEING NEGLECTED"

V dont need people to CARE or to SHARE
our FEELING ....
V FEAR that WE n OUR FEELINGS
will be surely
"NEGLECTED"

Expecting a SUPPORT n little HELP with all GRATITUDE
cannot be NEGLECTED
when it is expected from ua close ones,,,
but sometime it makes U to THINK

"OH  << MY EXPECTATION !!!
WILL ALL THAT BE NEGLECTED again ???"

                                                                               .--$uparna...

Hear to your inner soul :)

DON'T RAISE YOUR VOICE ------ against !!!

Please hear to your INNER VOICE OF SOUL ...
 Give time and talk to YOURSELF...
  No other FRIEND you feel best
   Other than the friend within YOU...
     Never raise your VOICE against you INNER SOUL..
       Its your SOULMATE that never leaves you...
        Give Silent minutes to hear its VOICE...
           It helps,guids and supports that no one can do...

                                                            

--$uparna...

;) LOL !!!

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ಹೀಗೂ ಉಂಟೆ!!!

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                                                                                --$uparna....

<<"ENDLESS FOOTSTEPS">>

"Endless footsteps"

Walking through a lonely black road
building hopes more n more...

Dreaming with every drop of rain
even sheding tears again n again...

No fun to take part
no fear to leave apart...

walking together for awhile
considered to be so worthwhile...

unspoken words are plenty
still everything left empty...

Missing a beat with every talk
it is endless footsteps having a walk...

                            --$uparna...

<< $tate of $ick Mind>>

<< $tate of $ick Mind>>

My sick mind goes blank
Into the state of non existence...
Wherever i look around and stare 
I see only a clear vast emptiness.

My soul is not yet burned
Still i sense a silence around...
It makes me to feel shy
Where tears burst and i cry.

Always i think of moving away
Turning back and i'm walking away...
Without hearing to anyone
Where i know i'm left with <no one>

My mind is filled with sorrow
Can i see brighter tomorrow???
i workout day n night without rest
Still i'm not hoping for the best.

I am not thinking beyond my imaginatition
It is not even my assumption...
Every hurt hitting me in sequence
where am losing my confidence.

Am tensed am worried of losing myself
With the past as a part of darkness...
Everthing seems to me as burden
Where my mind tells to shut down.

Is it worth to stay back n fight
Or to walk away n quit??
yes, i'm thinking of giving conclusion
but i'm still in a state of confusion.

The sunlight faded into dark clouds
Confidence broken i want to scream aloud...
It doesnot make any sense as no one cares
All hopes fly and exists only in air.

I want to gain my mind and soul 
I want to that in my control...
Before hope turn hopeless
I really want to regain <<myself>>

                                                               --- $uparna...

TIME HEALS THE PAIN

Time heals the pain...

Your thoughtful wishes very morning

Makes my day brighter than ever...
Your Fruitful words makes me to forget
 the harder times I had faced so far...

Though things are tiny to worry about
It always matters to me a lottt...
A tiny little water droplet has a power
To wipe out n wash out all my fear...

It takes time to heal the pain
Not the scare Which remains forever...
Every failure can't bring you success
Can make you stronger to face the future...

My words on a sheet of paper
Can't help me out to resolve things...
Just leaving a trail for you
To pen down your experiences...

Reading it after long time
Can bring back the smile....
You can wink at the past
Where... you actually cried...

--$uparna...

DIRECTION LESS DESTINATION

<<Towards Target Is What I Forget>>

I was remembering the day...
When I walked away...

Walked alone through a direction...
Without any fixed destination...
Reached nowhere...
Left somewhere...

Till the sun sets towards the darkness...
I left alone with an emptiness...

Came back home weird...
With pale face n I was tired...
Nice experience that I saw people...
Observed sorrows n happiness covered...

Mind become relaxed, regained strength to be alone....
AND learnt a lesson from loneliness, never afraid of becoming alone....
<<It was a happy journey>>

$uparna...