Boring Holidays and Longing Desire...

I am not an English scholar nor a good writer
but i believe that... my posts can be understood by you people...

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A TWILIGHT EVENING :

It was a Twilight Evening...
Twilight is the illumination of earth's lower atmosphere when the sun itself is not directly visible because it is below the horizon, where you can see the golden light scattering on the atmosphere...

It was the time... Sun was about to shut down from his daily routine and night was about to begin...

As usual a single star started blinking up in the sky...
Even the peaceful moon started peeping out to find the piece of dark cloud and star beside...

It was my holiday time ... Even i was with the same routine task of my day to day life...
Even after having holidays... I didn't went to hangout with friends ...
Even i didn't went for a tour,picnic,outing or anything as such...not even for a movie "PK" or "I"...

I was damn bored with the monotonous life in holidays.......
" I need to do something in this holidays "  was my usual verdict during my study holidays...
I was one who used to plan the things that i need to do in holidays without planning about studies n exams in study holidays...

But now... only few days left for "college reopen" and i did nothing in these holidays ...
Oh My God!!! what to DO??? became the mind striking question all time, when i get bored...

When i left with nothing to do i used to say..." i am bored "... and i was about to shout like "Take me out somewhere oh, god !!! i am fed up with this daily routine"
But what god can do???

At least gooooooogle can help me to come out from boring situations...

‘I’m bored' is a useless thing to say. I mean, you live in a great, big, vast world that you've seen none percent of. Even the inside of your own mind is endless; it goes on forever, inwardly, do you understand? The fact that you’re alive is amazing, so you don’t get to say ‘I’m bored'.
― Louis C.K

This quote caught my eyes.. when i logged in to my mail account...
I had a mail from my friend who started her mail with this quote...

Isn't it strange and Isn't it nice... When u get something... Something which really Interesting... Which attracts u .. When you are already in search of it...

After checking my mail... I switched off my laptop.... n saw a t.v remote lying lazy beside me ..
took it and switched on the "top green button" to have "red light" on T.V

Started checking the power and alertness of UV rays transmission by changing the channel ...
hmmm... working good...

While changing the channel from 1 2 3 to 68 n back to 67 66 65 64 i heard a song and changed channel to 65 again.....

Somewhere i heard switching to the nice songs can change our mind...

"interestingly"...A song grabbed my attention... it was a Tamil song about wish...

"Chinna Chinna Aasai Siragadikum Aasai 

Muthu Muthu Aasai Mudinthuvaitha Aasai" 

Yes a small,little,tiny dreams...
Dream means "Kanasu" .... aasai means not dream...
yeah!!  a "DESIRE"... a little,small,tiny "WISH"

‘Dreams have only one owner at a time. That’s why dreamers are lonely.’

i feel sooo lonely. Am i a dreamer???
Yes... I AM ...

I dream about my desires ....
then "I Should have some wishes"
& Small Unfulfilled dreams .

Not a daring dream like...
Thumbs up!! PePsi... wanna drink pepsi... "aaj kuch toofani karthey hain?" or
Even not a little desire of watching a movie night show (yes its a silly thing for reader not a simple task for a writer )

My deep desire and wishes :

1)TO "walk" alone in the lonely streets of unknown place... humming the tune of my favorite music... :)

2)A desire to have a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong drive to reach endless destiny... :)

3) Oh!!! yes wanna go a Joly ride to a nearby place as a picnic....

4)Hmmm  trekking...fire camp...
                       resting in huts made by us...
                                    eating the papads baked by us...

4) A dream of having a "moonlight" dinner with friends ...on the terrace

5)Wanna see the meteoroids fall... usually it happens during winter season ...

6)Wanna play "truth or dare" ,"Spirit come" and wanna hear "evil stories" late night...

7)Wanna play childhood games like "hide and seek" ,"snake n ladder" &"carom" with kids...
 "chess" & "cards" with elders...

8) A desire of building a clay houses near seashore at a great height that twinkling stars should lighten that sweet home...

9) Wanna sail across the world... Days together in a ship ... meeting new people having new friends...

10) Wish to see sunset being in the middle of the sea...
and a twilight greetings to the welcoming the darkness...

but where can i get my dreams and desire full filled??? how long it takes to get happiness from it???
 ... where i need to go in search of it???...
how to leave home to find kids n friends n to have night hangout?

how to replace tube light dinner n T.V from moonlight n friends???

In our busy schedule... holidays are meant for resting...

wake up @ 11 have food till 1... watch TV... start chatting in whatsApp and hike...
have sleep.... keep resting 12/7 and stay online 12/7....
Keep calling friends in line n viber ...
Start updating status in FB stating
"wow!!! i got 10000 nudge in group chat... i hanged up but my phone didn't hang"
commenting "may ua soul RIP"
and counter commenting "hehehe", "hahaha"... With a fake smile and artificial laugh...

with all these messed up feeling thought of updating a post...

I am in need of -> change over ...
fed up with this boring -> hangover...
I need a real smile n true happiness... not a fake n boring text sms...
I need my desires come true... I need my dreams to fly
I need to smile again ... I need to laugh from inside
I need a change ... I need friends who have same wish list...
I need time... I need a real world of mine...
I cant get my childhood happy holidays ... but I wish to get my desires come true with all my like minded friends once again...

--$uparna...