NeVeR ENDing FriENDship

It is so worth remembering...

 "The First Day I Met You" 

Today! The best day to recall that,

"How Much I Mean To You"

I still remember the day we met 

We were too shy to see at each other

It's funny to think back to that time

Because now we're like mirrors!

We've been learning so much together

In so little time we have shared 

I will never forget such moments

Those are the best moments we enjoyed!.

You will be always there for me

to lift my spirits up the sky

 I cannot regret the time I spent

Because it's all so worth while!

you're more than a friend to me

you're my teacher to guide

you're more than a sister... 

like a mother to care me as your child!

--$uparna...

Departure of Depression

"Bad day"
                 Everyday I felt the same and had the same verdict that "today is not so good to me - unlucky day" and almost from a week I was uttering the same thing & concluded with a word as an "unlucky week".

                  Those bad days will enter people when they seem that they are "sad" , I don't know what's wrong with that whole week?
It had 24 hrs a day and 7 days a week . Even the rising and setting sun didn't forget its job. Everything was normal. Still I felt everything as abnormal.

                I didn't forget to wake up in the morning & to sleep at night, even i was having food in time... but somewhere I felt lonely, depressed , in-activeness all together it was just " damn boring" n "disgusting" situation .It continued for a week ,... no enjoyment , no commitments , no friends & even no spirit to talk with others , some sort of discomfort i sensed all around.

"Without interest the work you do will never be effective and the result you expect will never be positive "

            > Putting sad as status in facebook cant fetch friends you actually need because if those friends are with you , you wouldn't have updated such kind of status.

           > Searching sad pictures and updating as your "dp" in WhatsApp can only increase the number of downloads not even a single person bothers about yours dp and even not about you...

           > You expect some one to hold your hands when you are alone, someone to cheer up when you are broken

           > Most interestingly !!!  you expect some one to understand the reason for your sadness which actually not even known to you and console you accordingly?!?...

HOW come its possible ???

           "You yourself don't know the reason for your sadness and you expect some god or goddess like creature to understand it " - it seems so funny

Does it really happens in the real world ???

          Still your heart expects some extraordinary things to happen & your mind imagines an abstract help from your close one whom your heart knows well.

         But you'll never know that when you are depressed ...The "one" whom you require most to boost your energy and spirit to infinity can be non other than "YOU" 

        Your mind still continues to expect someone and your heart knows that "someone's" absence might be one of the reason for your depression.Then to set it right it...  It can be possible with the one who is more powerful than the one whom you expect.

                 Why don't you realize that most powerful person is non other than "YOU"

YOU are the creator
    YOU are the healer
        YOU are the motivator
and even YOU are the infinite spirit to drive yourself

If you can't love yourself then who will fall in love with you
  If you can't care yourself then who will really care for you
    If you can't heal your own pain how come you expect others to do it for u???

   You need "one" to laugh with you to rejoice with you,

 let your heart smile along with your soul.

You need one to share your pain, 

let your hobby heals that soon.

You need one to move along with you,

let your shadow follow you.

You need one to show love,

 let you yourself fall in love with you.

If you need happiness to hug you tight,

let your hands say bye to your depression.

             As one begins to come out of a depression, there occurs self healing. One fears that the departure of the depression is not real. As one comes out of a depression there is a great sense of gratitude for those who have been true to them self. 
            “You have stood by me in my trials; you will ever be written on my heart.” With the departure of the depression there is often a change of behavior in a positive manner.
           
 But what this darkness and gloom threaten to do is to attack the person again. 
“what if the depression comes back again and stays?” 

            As the world was seen before, so it is seen now. One gradually makes judgments as in earlier times. Work seems appealing and absorbing again. Activities of fun seem attractive. Purpose starts to instill each day. Life has meaning once more. In this emergence from the dark-filled room, one has to cling, cling to the light and never look back. If the darkness approaches again, it must be fled with all one's strength. Gradually the light becomes more steady and sure. 

          During depression mornings are always the worst time. Now they are filled with sunlight. The singing birds proclaim hope. During the day, when moods used to change with game of sun and cloud ,a new zeal for life and its challenges appears. In the evening, when all could be go gray. Instead of longing for death, one is deeply grateful for new life and for all those who cared.

--$uparna...

EXPRESSION SAYS IT ALL

Before speaking a word

your mind thinks a while

when you're about to verbalize 

your expression conveys it  

This is usually the case

I can read the signs well

From a person’s face

Smile says you are happy

Dropped jaw says you are sad

The way you look says a lot

About what’s on your mind

Whatever expression you’ve got

Your true feelings can be find

I can understand the language 

of your speaking eyes

can sense that message in mind

can convey my reply to it  

connecting with your eyes

I can nod my head 

up and down, left and right

to say yes or no without words

only with the action what i mind

The way you look at me

with a question in mind

can be answered quickly

Bcz

your expression says it all

With a smile and wicked laugh

I can differentiate and I'm smarter

because i look deeper in your expression

not with your words and grammar

Smooth words can mislead People

not the expression that comes from mind

I can sense the laughing tears

I can see the crying smile

behind the expression that appears on your face

"Expression speak more than words... Expression says it all" 

- $uparna... 

 

"Candles of Life"

It was on ethnic day...

                The event began as a rally from the main building of the college to auditorium....
Gorgeous girls with all makeup,colorful dresses,magnificent bangles, matching elegant earrings and in enjoyment taking selfies...
                 We walked in a group towards college auditorium...
On the way I just deviated from my path and entered a place surrounded by neatly trimmed trees and grass... Tall pointed towers rose from the roof of the amazing church. Windows surrounded the separate towers. There were various brown, elegant doors leading towards the entrance of the church. With an inquisitiveness in mind...

                 I stepped inside a vast church looking at the empty benches and dim lights which shaded orange everywhere.

                 With a white dress i was like angel following my shadow towards heaven...

Calm mind,peaceful heart with a happy soul... I went so close to the sculpture which shined more brighter with the glowing candles lit by others.
I closed my eyes to put my prayers to the almighty ...
I heard sound of footsteps but neglected it. As it would be another devotee who entered to put his prayers.

I continued my prayers ...

"Praying is nothing but worshiping god inside the temple of soul".

                I sensed the feeling of closeness from "well known" 'unknown' standing behind me.
(He could be the one whom i know... I'm specifically say that it's "HE" by the sound of footsteps which i heard before)... but I meditated ignoring all the disturbance without getting diverted to such things...
   but...
          I felt the warmness & that person came so close to me n whispered in my ears not to
 "open my eyes"
         The smooth touch of that kindhearted person was so convincing that i hypnotized n followed his commands as his devotee, that person came even more closer and closed my hands with his hands n again whispered to move along with him without opening my eyes...

 As the touch was so familiar i din't refused to walk n went along with him...

"Lighting the candle of happiness, prosperity & knowledge"

              After walking few steps that person made me to light candles one after other with my eyes closed by his one hand, while he took my other hand and made me to light #candles.

1) First candle:

             Even closed eyes sensed the brightness, soul experienced the knowledge...

2)Second candle:
            While lighting the second candle i thought i was lighting the "candle of joy"...

3)Third candle:
           With the 3rd candle i experienced that i lit the "candle of love,wealth and prosperity"

"He whispered again in a hush voice...not to open my eyes...  your dream won't "continue" if you don't complete lighting the rest candles"

I sensed the touch of holiness in the breath of his voice. I went deep in devotion with his words .

I said "hmmm"...

he said
" you are in a holy place lighting the candle of success, candle of dreams "

I never experienced that a "well-Known unknown" with a familiar voice whom i could not able to identify.
He guided me in each step and his words tied my eyes blind folded... i was not suppose to open my eyes till I light the rest candles.
" It was like magical day come true so realistic"

His hands surrounded me like a blanket around my neck
"whispering voice said..."

"May all your dreams come true"
after lighting up the other candles....

Suddenly the church bell rang
 "Daaan"
     "Daan"
         "Daan"
With a shock ...
As a "response" to "stimuli" ...
                                              As "action" to "reaction" ...

I suddenly opened my eyes to see him neglecting his husky voice which said not to "open my eyes"...

 and that was the "bell sound" of my "alarm clock" orotund  @ 5:35 am

I again closed my eyes and prayed let my dream "continue" but I was late to realize that my dream will not continue because, I neglected his words and opened my eyes in the middle.
                      " Dream and Sleep" disappeared with that "Well-Known Unknown person".

--$uparna...

:) ...HAPPINESS IS THANKING YOU ALL...

"Try to make at least on person happy everyday. if you cannot do a kind deed,speak a kind word.If you cannot speak a kind word,think a kind thought. Count up,if you can,the treasure of happiness that you would dispense in a week,in a year,in a lifetime".

                                                                                                      -Lawrence

   Simple things make us happy... It may be a smile ;), or a message from beloved one or a call from childhood friend or having chocolates in a boring class room or..

But...

 HAPPINESS IS WHAT ACTUALLY MAKE YOU SMILE... WHICH MAKE YOU TO FEEL THE REAL HAPPINESS & SATISFACTION INTERNALLY....

When i started writing small poems ... I was the only person reading it... When i shared my writings with friends count increased to 10... 

when i published my blog... count increased to 100...

Some liked what i wrote,some called me stupid,some of them gave me nice suggestions,some gave me a serious comment n some started following n some started viewing it every day....

Now page-viewers reached 1000+ and am happy for it...

                                                                                                                               --$uparna...

"A WALK"

Do you remember the walk

Under the colorful sky???

walking together unnoticed...

without knowing about each other.

Do you remember the walk 

we missed the road in the middle,

when you followed my shadow 

and i followed yours  ???

Do you remember the walk

during the first heavy rain

after a stressed busy day

with our mesmerized thoughts 

Do you remember the walk

which made our path

filled with may flowers

and street lights lit all around

Do you remember the walk

which brought immense happiness

we got to know about each other

there after we became more closer 

Do you remember the walk

at night 12' o clock

in a cold winter breeze

where you gave your coat

Do you remember the walk

in a cold twilight evening

with the rainbow and silence

were our heart spoke n we left silent

Do you remember the walk

walk under tree shades

holding hand together

with all the sheer moments 

Do you remember the walk

we shared only smiles 

forgetting all the pain

and loved walking forever

Do you remember the walk

where our eyes met 

which took back to those days

were we get to know about each other

Do you remember the walk

which took us long distance

and filled with happy moments

since from the day we met in a walk

--$uparna...

GOOD BYE!!!

Goodbye...

"Nothing good inside good bye"

Saying goodbye is like a pained cry  

It became a knife to my heart, 

Which led my feeling to fall apart.

Somewhere, someday we’ll meet again,

No hope left & I have to sustain

Yet there is a beautiful life to me to lead, 

But without you I have to proceed.

My pretty life goes normal

With my practices so,casual 

without you i have to move further

Bcz before meeting you I have reached so far

You Just created a bunch of memories

Showed crying smiles & laughing tears together

Now I cannot hide the pain & tear

Until it spills out Like an ink on a sheet of paper.

                                                                                       --$uparna...