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ಆ ಕಿರಣದ ಹೊಳಪಾಗುವೆ...
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ನೀನು ನೀನಾಗು
ನಿನ್ನಲ್ಲಿ
ನಾನು ನಾನಾಗುವೆ...

--$uparna...

Song Of Your Voice An Unheard MelodY

I love music I like songs,
From the hit lists of all favorite,
But your is the best of all
To hear even when i am upset..

I felt I was in a magical place,
When I heard your voice...
It became a music of my soul,
And a rhythm to my heart beat..

May be the reason why your voice
Is a catchy ringtone to my ears
Is i haven't heard any tune yet
As caring as yours to forget.

-- $uparna...

YOU ARE "FAVORITE SONG" OF "MY LIFE"

"You are Unlike that all the people i have ever met"
May be a common statement i stated to all the special persons whom i have met... but each and every one is  special,unique n unlike from the rest.

It was a cultural noon, a "karaoke singing" event organised by our department in our college. As it was a singing competition event, participants were overcrowded and music lovers were sat to hear the melody of music.

"I love music but am not a singer" and  "I listen to songs and I judge them, but am not a judge" .

Competition started, participants were enthusiastic to sing a song which they have practiced ...

Some songs made me as alphabets in their lyrics, some songs made me to yawn,even some made me to have a nap and some made me to loose myself and took me to the world of music by their melodies beats... apart from mass participants , only "one person" and "one song" touched my heart n created a playlist in my memory.

I decided him as the winner because he own thevhearts of audience n made people to hum the tune played by him.. winning is not important , gaining attention of people and leaving a trail is important and "HE" left a trail in listener's memory.

Who is he? i don't know ... how to congratulate him??? Obviously, he will be having fACebOOk account but the thing is first i need to know his name...
Within no time, i got to know his name...
what I hate is two people have same name in the same class .... It made a serious identity crises for the singer because, Icongratulated the wrong person by the same name.
It was such a embarrassing moment that i faced, when i came to know that i talked and congratulated the wrong person.

Time passed and I recovered from that moment, got the contact of that singer. I pinged him in Whatsapp n finally congratulated him.
Contact got exchanged added him as favorite in hike too...

"Everything we do is for the purpose of altering consciousness. We form friendships so that we can feel certain emotions. Similarly , based on individual interest people eat specific foods to enjoy their taste, people read for the pleasure of thinking another person's thoughts and people like me hear to their favorite music to get refreshment from routine work"

 I started to plug in earphones while traveling, eating and it became a part of my work. It became a habit to hear to his songs 'n' times during a day and night... his tune effectively heard in my earphones than any other branded or skull candy earphones. Collection of his songs created a playlist in my Cellphone.

When you take your attention into the present moment, a certain alertness arises. You become more conscious of what's around you, but also, strangely, a sense of presence that is both within and without.

The person whom i was not knowing became the person whom i know, he was around me in our campus but i never noticed his presence around...after getting to know about each other, my eyes started noticing him twice a day, talking to him became my favorite pass time.

Sometimes, we just talk to somebody who has nothing in common and still we are so much fascinated by their presence, may be same thing happened with me where, I discovered the joy and negated the pain by that melodies person...I saw the child likeness ,innocence and humbleness in him... Can a person be so good having all features inside a pure little heart? If Yes... then according me its non other than him "My Chweet Arsh ".

Please note: Above story is just a narration. It is going to do NOTHING with my personal issues.

--$uparna...

PASSION towards PLAYING

Football player "Magh Anison" words...

Player has passion towards game, i too had a motto of becoming a great player in future...
" practice make man perfect " was the determination made me to be regular to the football practice.
Getting injured while playing game was common during my practice.
I never bothered about the pain or wound...i was very much sportive towards the game and challenges.

let me quote abdul kalam words :

you will understand what contradiction i actually meant here with my experience of dreaming n achieving...

Football final match arranged in SPC stadium @ 11:00am.
Being a team "captian" it was my extensive responsibility to lead my team well... Ultimate motto what i had was to make my team as winners...

"Will Power can overcome the pain... Even gravity of earth cannot influence on us to hit the ground while playing"

Play safe, we have extra players... don't create a scene in front of audience if anyone get injured just move out of the ground . but, lets hope nothing major injury going to happen while playing the game.
was the last guidelines given by our couch.
yes true,
"Playing with determination make us to win the game...Winning is needed in game which obviously overcome the pain... Concentrate on game not on trophy that we win" i said n entered the stadium.

It was a shiny day, delegates were seated under shelter to protect their complexion from sun...
We were sweating hard ... we all cheered up towards the sun the holding hand together in a josh and team spirit, a sharp beam of sun directed us to have a look on "trophy" glowing as gold by sun ray which attracted our attention... boosted our spirit even more to win the match.
 
Finally Match started...

We were in "red and white ready to fight jersey" ...opposite team were in royal blue n white wearing same color sports shoe!
Hitting a goal is not dependent on the color of sports shoe that they wear, maintaining uniformity in appearance can only make audience to predict and to have illusion that they could be the winners...
uff within no time captian of the other team hit the goal, audience started betting more and more having confidence on the other team ...

"we are players ... we know our caliber.. we even have a strategy that
 if the first goal hit by opposite team ... they feel themselves strong and as human tendency of "superiority complex" can make their focus low toward game having overconfidence that they beat us.

"Failure is the stepping stone for success"

 we took it as challenge and played with concentration but again we missed !!! we missed a chance of hitting the goal..

TWO goals were hit by them with no delay in time ...
"Its not shame on us because its a game. Miracle can happen at anytime... dedication and determination can make us to hit more goals later.

"we are not failures our success is postponed ... we cant give up ... just first 2 goals cant declare them as winners...

match continued...

sun was overhead energy level was going low... it took 15 n odd minutes to hit a single goal from our team...

T break announced... some audience left the stadium n some were entered ...
some criticized us... some cheered us but we didn't get distracted or disappointed by them .

The real game began . It was really a tough competition.
Score started fluctuating like a ECG reading... its the last goal ... value of luck and goal stood at the peak, its the last goal left to determine us as winners or looser.
Influence of gravity made me to hit the ground very badly got severely injured and started bleeding heavily but, with the same force i hit the ball towards goal...
Ball went up in the sky rotating n touching the happiness n went inside the net.
 "GOAL" "GOAL" "WE WON THE MATCH"

 Everyone cheered with uncontrollable happiness ... every one went towards couch to spread happiness. Opposite team congratulated us even we had a hand shake as formality.
 I walked away... wounds started bleeding more and more... I somehow managed  to walk and went out of the court , taking my jacket... drinking water from my bottle towards first aid center which was half a km away from stadium.

Wounds started paining n bleeding , cut n wounds throughout my leg and hands...breath struck i fell down, i had no energy to get up or to pick my phone from pocket.. Seeking " no one " around not even my team mates...
Alone seeing some blur image of a white dressed girl coming towards my path, with all my strength n power i called her. I think it was too late "i am no more" was the last thought came to my mind. I left completely blank n my last breath stopped "I closed my eyes "...

When i opened my eyes,  i was in my room.. It was 6:00 am morning...
 // my pain was worth winning a trophy//
but now no pain i felt... It took nearly 20min to come out of match hangover that I played last day and 10min to realize that am perfectly alright... no wounds no scar n no pain but it took 5 more min to digest the truth, that it was just a "DREAM OF MATCH" that i had last night ...

Quote:
            "Dream of achievement should be achieved... that should not let you sleep... Achievement dream is what I saw in my sleep " 

--$uparna...

PRAYERS

Prayers can protect you
From all hard situations of life...
Its your immense pleasure,
To see the power of god !
During the times when you are down.

Take a walk to the heaven
By your prayers each day...
Remember him during hard times,
Also thank him in happy situation !
For giving you a "reason" to smile.

Enrich the enlightenment
Of your inner soul...
Forget the loneliness from heart,
Even the sadness of mind!
By praying him each day.

Give time to talk with god
A god beyond all religion...
Not having any bound of region,
Who can free your mind !
By only means of meditation.

Having focused determination
To have strong confidence...
with high acceptance level of mind,
Rush into the world of happiness !
By reaching him from your prayers.

Spending few minutes with him
Will clear the junk memories...
Removes all negative energy,
Boost your thoughts from mind !
Giving fruitful essence of life.

Never loose faith on formless god
If your prayers are not fulfilled...
Because its always said,

"One who undergoes with all the bitter experiences And still Wait with patience, prayers and hope"

Is "BLESSED" and given with "THE BEST THINGS" in life.

--$uparna...

"-" DREAM "-"

 "Dream is a sensation of emotions that occur involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep.
"Dream Physcology" is difficult to understand & even harder to predict".

Can you recall a dream???
Dreamt last night or may be long back, 
Which had a hangover to the next day 
That, even u could remember till today...

Can you remember that dream
With a situation you met there,
That, nowhere related to your routine life,
Or that was all about your real life...

Can you remember the person
Whom you last met in your dreams?
Shared a word, spilled a smile!
Or a tear and literally cried...

Can you remember a dream
which was shocking and horrified, 
that made you to shout aloud
with no voice coming out...

Can you remember a dream
were a serious confession made,
your sweet love was expressed
or a lot of confusion created...

Can you remember a dream
where you saw "dream inside a dream"
as a great lucid dreamer
or as an insomniac sufferer

Can you remember a dream
were u found a mystery!
believed a myth in reality, 
as a power of sixth sense...

Can you remember any morning-dream
that really came true for you,
where you started trusting them
and feared of having it in future!

Can you remember a dream
where you made a wish
a wish of having that dream,
to come true in your life?

"Recall that DREAM 
    Which had a impact on you
      Reveal that secret and the "?"
         Where you Dive Deep inspecting that DREAM" 
        
--$uparna...

YOU ARE SPECIAL TO SOME ONE & SOME ONE IS SPECIAL TO YOU

I stepped out my home from a deep sleep which i had last night . 

It was not a fresh early morning to describe its beauty. Sun was already turned glaring into golden round sphere and vehicle sounds were hitting my ears that was not so pleasant and it doesn't made me to stay long time outside...

I just came inside and saw time in my phone, it was 8:10 am. As soon i switched on my mobile data, notification started popping on my screen. I read all notification and replied to few of my messages. There I came to know that, it was not just an other day of 2015!!! Its a "Valentines day" of this year 2k15.

But what to do? 

Yes!!! It is a special day... A remarkable day same as

Republic day,independence day and Gandhi Jayanthi... but these days are marked RED on calender... Valentines day is celebrated as red day without marking RED on calender

this was the only difference i found till today...

Hmm whatever the day may be, I was having class at 9:50 am.. With all the scattered books and assignments I managed to get it settled and started walking to my stop ...

It was exactly 8:55 am. I was 15 steps away from my stop.

Many people were waiting for the bus ... Some were drilled under the screen of their cell phone. Some were hanged to it... Some were chit chatting with friends but...

Some one special

With a single book on his left hand a guy wearing spectacles was standing alone in a blue shirt and black pant with a silver colored watch tied on the hand which was holding a long note book... 

Sun was even brighter.. Striking my eyes made me not to have a clear-cut vision of that boy standing over there... But from few steps far he didn't resembled as my bus mate ( an interesting person whom I am referring to )

I thought may be its just an illusion or my assumption because, how come i saw my bus mate here...!!! Whom i have not seenfrom past 3 months...???

By stepping each step out of 15... towards my stop.

 Lots of questions, confusion triggered in my mind ...

Today is Valentines day.

> How can he be here ? 

- But whats the link between his presence and valentines day!

> Today is his birthday and why he is here? 

- But whether it is him or not ... If its my birthday boy..I should wish him. :)

> Today coincidently he is wearing the same color shirt what i am wearing ... 

- But whats there in it ? Its a common Blue color!!!

But whatever the situation may be who ever the person be , If he is "my bus mate"  

OH..My..God!!! I should talk to him.. This was the last decision i made and stepped towards him .

Yes he is " my bus mate " by looking at him my heart skipped a beat... 

Unfortunately he get into the bus and Spontaneously i too get onto the same bus...

Suddenly my memories started rewinding ... where my mind went to the last year Feb 14th were I thought of wishing him on his birthday but i couldn't ...

He was such a sober,innocent good looking guy with a talent of playing music. 

I had all collection of his playlist and even to be true am the one who sent him the friend request.

His music take me deep into the tune he play ... His View will bring back a unknowing smile on my face.

His presence around me will be sensed soon and it is nothing but the attraction and a connection what i am having without talking to him once till today.

With all memories about that person, i reached my campus . 

He came beside me but, how to approach him to wish for his birthday? How to call his sweet name?

I struggled two and half months to know his name and finally, I named him as "cartoon network".

"CARTOON NETWORK" may be a funny name but let me give the interpretation.

CARTOON is the lovely animated creature which have a great impact on children and make them laugh and even gives a feeling of happiness to older people... 

"Same way I'll have a smile on my face whenever and wherever i see him"

NETWORK means a connection ..

so, "whenever he is around me some sort of connection get established between us"

so, that name suits him very well and i didn't get any other name to approach him even his fb name didn't flashed to my mind in that excitement.

He disappeared soon from my imagination and went to his department and i couldn't able to track him.

I really missed an opportunity of meeting him and wishing him for the last time...

I lost the chance of seeing him in future on Feb 14th in my college because its the last year of his college...

All my energy drained as an uncharged smartphone ... Even I lost charger from my  life... I lost a flash light of my eyes because, i never track his sight in future...

I missed a pop up heart beat and even lost connection which got established.

Even though it was just another day in my life... It became a special remarkable day.

"I WISH YOU A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY ON THIS VALENTINE DAY TO 

 " CARTOON NETWORK " OF MY LIFE AND EVEN I FEEL THANKFUL TO YOU " 

UNKNOWINGLY AN UNKNOWN PERSON WHOM YOU KNOW CAN HAVE A GREAT IMPACT ON YOU 

MAY BE FOR A MINUTE , AN HOUR OR FOR YEARS TOGETHER.

THEY MAY STAY SPECIAL FOREVER.

DEAR READER...

You are SPECIAL. 

yoU are some one's special.

yoU have a special  place in some one's life.

May be you too had a special impact on someone.

May be someone remembers you and you are really special for them.

All the time you might not be knowing where and how you place a special role in some one's life.

Some things happen without your knowledge.

u r special to some one.. and some one is special to you.

## "Stay special and be thankful" ##

--$uparna...